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[She feels the same way, honestly, and she spent a lot of Gallipoli rescuing COST recruits and soldiers alike simply because they were on the same side. She understands what it feels like to want to be sure their side is safe and coming out of everything on top and be willing to do what it takes, but still-]
It is personal. Do you send out messages like this to everyone you hardly know?
It is personal. Do you send out messages like this to everyone you hardly know?
A fair amount. Most of the recruits here fall under the "hardly know" category.
But
I appreciate the sentiment.
I guess. But it's still weird.
I appreciate the sentiment.
I guess. But it's still weird.
Depends on how much trouble you get into in the future.
[ so, no ]
[ so, no ]
I can promise you right now I won't stop doing everything I can to beat the Regency, no matter what it costs me.
Get comfortable, I suppose.
Get comfortable, I suppose.
I'm not going to tell you to forget the mission parameters and swaddle you. We're here for the same thing.
Just be careful.
Just be careful.
I'm the one with magic, you know. Worry about yourself.
Yeah and here in spiderland, that makes you an exceptional snack.
Do you think I'm entirely unable to defend myself? The first time I was kidnapped I didn't know how to fight back against what was happening to me, but now I do. The second time it was because I was stupid enough to trust someone I shouldn't have, and now I know better. In Gallipoli it was because I exhausted myself, and I'm fine now. I've been saving my energy.
If you want to check in then fine, you have. Stop acting like I'm a child who needs her hand held.
If you want to check in then fine, you have. Stop acting like I'm a child who needs her hand held.
Unlikely you'd have made it this far if that were the case, so no. I'm just pointing out the rules are different here. As I mentioned to Dany– we're basically fighting on two fronts, it's good to be cautious.
[ SHRUG ]
Are you like this with everyone who asks after you? It's like it never happens or something.
[ SHRUG ]
Are you like this with everyone who asks after you? It's like it never happens or something.
[Oh what the hell, it might shut him up for once.]
That's because it doesn't. I've gotten along fine by myself my entire life, in a place where there was no natural food or water. This is nothing compared to a lifetime of that.
When I tell you you don't have to be worried I'm not saying it because I'm cocky and I think I know better than you. I'm saying it because it's always been true.
That's because it doesn't. I've gotten along fine by myself my entire life, in a place where there was no natural food or water. This is nothing compared to a lifetime of that.
When I tell you you don't have to be worried I'm not saying it because I'm cocky and I think I know better than you. I'm saying it because it's always been true.
[ wow holy shit he wasn't expecting a life snippet here. ]
Let me get this straight– you've been on your own. Your entire life?
Let me get this straight– you've been on your own. Your entire life?
Don't take this the wrong way– or I don't know, do. Whatever. But I'm sorry, that must've been hard.
[ and well: ]
And lonely.
[ and well: ]
And lonely.
[She could drive it home so much harder, tell him just how unwanted she was, how little she meant to parents who probably never wanted her to begin with, but what would the point of that be? To rub in his face how sad she is? How he's exactly right that she's terribly, terribly lonely, utterly alone in a place with no familiar faces except for Kylo Ren?
She doesn't need his pity or his sympathy, and all her attempt to push him away does is make him apologize and try to reach out even more.
The worst part is it's exactly what she's always wanted, someone to show that she matters, that she isn't something to be cast aside, and it's because she's terrified of losing it again that she can't stand this now.
In the end she never replies to him, unable to accept an apology he shouldn't have to give or to admit that he's right.]
She doesn't need his pity or his sympathy, and all her attempt to push him away does is make him apologize and try to reach out even more.
The worst part is it's exactly what she's always wanted, someone to show that she matters, that she isn't something to be cast aside, and it's because she's terrified of losing it again that she can't stand this now.
In the end she never replies to him, unable to accept an apology he shouldn't have to give or to admit that he's right.]
[This will probably come midday out of nowhere, he's already sorry.
Gently, so as to not startle Rey-]
Master?
[Hi. He probably forgot to mention the mental link. Sumanai.]
Gently, so as to not startle Rey-]
Master?
[Hi. He probably forgot to mention the mental link. Sumanai.]
[It is unexpected, but it's not entirely unfamiliar. She can feel it starting like the same kind of strange buzzing that happens before she turns to find Kylo Ren staring at her, but when she looks this time-
There's nothing. It leaves her on edge, unsure of what's happening to her and why, and for a minute she's sure Kylo Ren has done something, bound them in some new and frustrating way... right until an entirely different voice says that word. It makes her jump, and she answers out loud because that's what she knows.
Thankfully, there's no one around to see her talking to herself.]
Siegfried?
There's nothing. It leaves her on edge, unsure of what's happening to her and why, and for a minute she's sure Kylo Ren has done something, bound them in some new and frustrating way... right until an entirely different voice says that word. It makes her jump, and she answers out loud because that's what she knows.
Thankfully, there's no one around to see her talking to herself.]
Siegfried?
[It's an odd response he gets, all things considered- he never hears the reply, for starters. But Rey's confusion is apparent as anything as it filters to him like water through a sieve. For an instant he hesitates, unsure as to if he should speak, until he realizes she may not fully understand what he's doing.
He tries again.]
Master. If you can hear me, think of a sentence in your mind as if you were trying to speak to me.
[There. Hopefully that's a bit more helpful than simply just leaving her to it.]
He tries again.]
Master. If you can hear me, think of a sentence in your mind as if you were trying to speak to me.
[There. Hopefully that's a bit more helpful than simply just leaving her to it.]
I can hear you.
[It comes almost hesitantly, like she's still suspicious of this but at least willing to let it go on so she can figure it out.]
Is this something you'll always be able to do?
[It comes almost hesitantly, like she's still suspicious of this but at least willing to let it go on so she can figure it out.]
Is this something you'll always be able to do?
[Ah, there's the reply. The hesitance is to be expected, honestly, so he tries to explain.]
Not just me, the both of us can. We have a mental link that connects us as part of the contract we've made. [A pause.] It was originally created to allow a Master and their Servant to remain in contact with each other when they were separated, but most use it for more than that. If you ever need to speak with me in private, this would be the easiest way.
Unless we're separated by unknown means, I'll always be able to hear you.
Not just me, the both of us can. We have a mental link that connects us as part of the contract we've made. [A pause.] It was originally created to allow a Master and their Servant to remain in contact with each other when they were separated, but most use it for more than that. If you ever need to speak with me in private, this would be the easiest way.
Unless we're separated by unknown means, I'll always be able to hear you.
That was a rough fight.
[Is he gloating? Upset? Who knows!]
[Is he gloating? Upset? Who knows!]
[She has to recheck who this is coming from because
what.]
You saw it?
[Obviously he did Rey duh.]
what.]
You saw it?
[Obviously he did Rey duh.]
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