Do you think I'm entirely unable to defend myself? The first time I was kidnapped I didn't know how to fight back against what was happening to me, but now I do. The second time it was because I was stupid enough to trust someone I shouldn't have, and now I know better. In Gallipoli it was because I exhausted myself, and I'm fine now. I've been saving my energy.
If you want to check in then fine, you have. Stop acting like I'm a child who needs her hand held.
Unlikely you'd have made it this far if that were the case, so no. I'm just pointing out the rules are different here. As I mentioned to Dany– we're basically fighting on two fronts, it's good to be cautious.
[ SHRUG ]
Are you like this with everyone who asks after you? It's like it never happens or something.
[Oh what the hell, it might shut him up for once.]
That's because it doesn't. I've gotten along fine by myself my entire life, in a place where there was no natural food or water. This is nothing compared to a lifetime of that.
When I tell you you don't have to be worried I'm not saying it because I'm cocky and I think I know better than you. I'm saying it because it's always been true.
[She could drive it home so much harder, tell him just how unwanted she was, how little she meant to parents who probably never wanted her to begin with, but what would the point of that be? To rub in his face how sad she is? How he's exactly right that she's terribly, terribly lonely, utterly alone in a place with no familiar faces except for Kylo Ren?
She doesn't need his pity or his sympathy, and all her attempt to push him away does is make him apologize and try to reach out even more.
The worst part is it's exactly what she's always wanted, someone to show that she matters, that she isn't something to be cast aside, and it's because she's terrified of losing it again that she can't stand this now.
In the end she never replies to him, unable to accept an apology he shouldn't have to give or to admit that he's right.]
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Date: 2018-05-12 12:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-05-12 12:46 am (UTC)If you want to check in then fine, you have. Stop acting like I'm a child who needs her hand held.
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Date: 2018-05-12 01:31 am (UTC)[ SHRUG ]
Are you like this with everyone who asks after you? It's like it never happens or something.
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Date: 2018-05-12 01:46 am (UTC)That's because it doesn't. I've gotten along fine by myself my entire life, in a place where there was no natural food or water. This is nothing compared to a lifetime of that.
When I tell you you don't have to be worried I'm not saying it because I'm cocky and I think I know better than you. I'm saying it because it's always been true.
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Date: 2018-05-12 01:52 am (UTC)Let me get this straight– you've been on your own. Your entire life?
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Date: 2018-05-12 01:53 am (UTC)[ and well: ]
And lonely.
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Date: 2018-05-12 02:00 am (UTC)She doesn't need his pity or his sympathy, and all her attempt to push him away does is make him apologize and try to reach out even more.
The worst part is it's exactly what she's always wanted, someone to show that she matters, that she isn't something to be cast aside, and it's because she's terrified of losing it again that she can't stand this now.
In the end she never replies to him, unable to accept an apology he shouldn't have to give or to admit that he's right.]