[She's not very good at waiting when there are plans to be made, she's very much the type to get all the threads tied up, clear paths made to follow, but without information there isn't much.]
I can talk to him about it. He may as well know I'm going to be helping.
[How Lark will actually feel about that is up in the air, but she can draw quite well herself and she'd rather hear it directly rather than filtered through more people.]
I do still believe in what this place could be. I know firsthand that there isn't always something better waiting for someone when they leave here. If all I had to return to from here was Jakku, knowing what I know now, I wouldn't want to go back there. For some people, this is as good as their lives have gotten. I don't want to take that away.
And I- there are some things I never would have learned if I hadn't come here. That I like apples, for example. [And she smiles at him, and it's kind and something she learned here.] I never would have learned the things I'm capable of letting myself do, or be, for other people. I wouldn't take back coming here, even after everything all of the bad things that followed the good.
[This is turning into some sort of speech though, and she hates that, so she pulls a segment off of her orange and hands it over to him. For her, sharing food is no small thing, and she knows he's aware of that.]
But for it to mean anything, this can't be a place that makes men like Alfie wish they were dead. There has to be hope or all of it means nothing.
[Steve nods.] Just tell him you talked to me. He'll understand.
[And, speech or no, he lets her speak her piece. Honestly, it just underscores the fact that coming to Rey was the right decision. It hurts, in a way, to think that she has come to feel the way he does. But it also means she's an ally, and it also means she understands exactly what he wants to do. That understanding, and that support, mean a lot to him, because like he told Lark, he'd been planning on doing this alone. The fact that he might not have to... it's a relief he can't deny.]
I don't want to destroy the Barge. I still believe in what it stands for. I want to turn it into the place it should be - the place the inmates were promised when they were brought here. They deserve that. The wardens deserve that. Nobody deserves what this place has become. It's a broken system. I want to fix it. I think we can fix it, because we're strong enough to stand up for what it should mean, and make that a reality.
[He takes the piece of orange with a grateful smile, and nods.] This place should be hope. It shouldn't be a wall that beats people down. I'm glad you feel the same way. Not every warden will. But I think enough of them will. And if they don't... [He glances down, smiles a little, almost to himself.] Even if everyone is telling you that something wrong is something right, that doesn't make it right. That doesn't mean you back down.
[There's something funny about that being his reasoning because not too terribly long ago, that was exactly what she was thinking when Bull tossed Han over the side of the Deck like it meant absolutely nothing.
It wasn't right, and no one seemed to care, and so she had done something. Her methods then had been extreme, and so is this. It's sort of full circle in a way and she supposes that's fitting.]
We'll find the right way to do this. To get the people who want to go home, home.
[It seems to be a recurring theme on the Barge, at the least. With so many people who have their own idea of what's right and wrong, things get... complicated.
Steve's just trying to make them more simple. All he knows is, the Admiral isn't helping them. And he should. If he won't, if he's going to keep actively violating the promises he made to them... he has to be stopped. A better system has to be put into place.]
I don't know what the answer is, but I know it's not the Admiral. It's not a man - or a thing, or whatever he is - making false promises and actively failing to care about the people he makes promises to. I believe there is a right answer, and I think we can find it.
I... guess I have to ask you to keep pretty quiet about this. I probably don't even have to ask you - I trust you. I don't even know if the Admiral will care - he already knows how I feel about him, and he doesn't care about that - but I don't want this coming back to haunt you or anyone else with a deal, not until we have a better solution in place.
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Date: 2016-11-14 09:03 pm (UTC)I can talk to him about it. He may as well know I'm going to be helping.
[How Lark will actually feel about that is up in the air, but she can draw quite well herself and she'd rather hear it directly rather than filtered through more people.]
I do still believe in what this place could be. I know firsthand that there isn't always something better waiting for someone when they leave here. If all I had to return to from here was Jakku, knowing what I know now, I wouldn't want to go back there. For some people, this is as good as their lives have gotten. I don't want to take that away.
And I- there are some things I never would have learned if I hadn't come here. That I like apples, for example. [And she smiles at him, and it's kind and something she learned here.] I never would have learned the things I'm capable of letting myself do, or be, for other people. I wouldn't take back coming here, even after everything all of the bad things that followed the good.
[This is turning into some sort of speech though, and she hates that, so she pulls a segment off of her orange and hands it over to him. For her, sharing food is no small thing, and she knows he's aware of that.]
But for it to mean anything, this can't be a place that makes men like Alfie wish they were dead. There has to be hope or all of it means nothing.
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Date: 2016-11-14 09:12 pm (UTC)[And, speech or no, he lets her speak her piece. Honestly, it just underscores the fact that coming to Rey was the right decision. It hurts, in a way, to think that she has come to feel the way he does. But it also means she's an ally, and it also means she understands exactly what he wants to do. That understanding, and that support, mean a lot to him, because like he told Lark, he'd been planning on doing this alone. The fact that he might not have to... it's a relief he can't deny.]
I don't want to destroy the Barge. I still believe in what it stands for. I want to turn it into the place it should be - the place the inmates were promised when they were brought here. They deserve that. The wardens deserve that. Nobody deserves what this place has become. It's a broken system. I want to fix it. I think we can fix it, because we're strong enough to stand up for what it should mean, and make that a reality.
[He takes the piece of orange with a grateful smile, and nods.] This place should be hope. It shouldn't be a wall that beats people down. I'm glad you feel the same way. Not every warden will. But I think enough of them will. And if they don't... [He glances down, smiles a little, almost to himself.] Even if everyone is telling you that something wrong is something right, that doesn't make it right. That doesn't mean you back down.
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Date: 2016-11-14 10:25 pm (UTC)It wasn't right, and no one seemed to care, and so she had done something. Her methods then had been extreme, and so is this. It's sort of full circle in a way and she supposes that's fitting.]
We'll find the right way to do this. To get the people who want to go home, home.
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Date: 2016-11-14 11:03 pm (UTC)Steve's just trying to make them more simple. All he knows is, the Admiral isn't helping them. And he should. If he won't, if he's going to keep actively violating the promises he made to them... he has to be stopped. A better system has to be put into place.]
I don't know what the answer is, but I know it's not the Admiral. It's not a man - or a thing, or whatever he is - making false promises and actively failing to care about the people he makes promises to. I believe there is a right answer, and I think we can find it.
I... guess I have to ask you to keep pretty quiet about this. I probably don't even have to ask you - I trust you. I don't even know if the Admiral will care - he already knows how I feel about him, and he doesn't care about that - but I don't want this coming back to haunt you or anyone else with a deal, not until we have a better solution in place.