[What does she think. She's still so captivated that she can't pull her eyes away from the ocean as the waves roll over her toes to roll her eyes at him, but she can squeeze his hand lightly.]
Thank you.
[It's enough of an answer, she can trust him to translate her meaning the way he always seems to be able to.
And then, because why not, she starts to tug him with her out into the water. That's what they're here for, right?]
[ It's a perfect answer. His smile grows warmer while he squeezes her hand a little.
Her walking (and taking him) out there shouldn't be very unexpected, though. His eyebrows jump, but he happily follows, treading water as they go steadily deeper into the waves. ]
There may be a drop. [ So, y'know, watch your step. But he speaks softly, not wanting to interrupt this for her. ]
Then stop me before we get to it, I can't swim. I hadn't planned on dying again so soon.
[It's a joke, if a bad one, but one that's said so offhand it's probably clear she doesn't actually think it's going to hit wrong. She's too busy being absolutely enthralled by the feeling of the water pushing and pulling her body, gentle but not entirely unlike the Force when she allowed herself to fall deeply into a meditative state.
Gentle and there, moving through and with her. As she sweeps her hand through the water to test the drag of it on her limbs she decides quickly that she does in fact like this whole swimming thing, even if she isn't actually doing it and her feet are still planted firmly on the ground.
Despite the grim thing she's just said, she looks very happy.]
Will this stay like this for long? I'd be sad to see it go.
[ His lips thin, but all Finn does about that joke is squeeze her hand a little. It is a bad joke, but he's not going to stop her from however she wants to cope with it.
But he's not going to bring it up. This time. Instead, he lets out a breath and allows the edge of his lips to tip back up in a tiny smile. ]
For a little while, but it'll always be programmed into the sim room, I think. You can just recreate it whenever you want. Or create a different beach or something.
You never got to see Ahch-To. It wasn't pretty like this, but it was the first time I ever saw the rain.
[Out of everyone that she knows, she knows Finn will understand exactly how important that moment was for her, why she would want to share it with him.]
I wish I still had the Jedi texts I got from the temple there, there's so much we can both still learn from them.
[ He squeezes her hand again because, yes, he does understand. Maybe he doesn't get it entirely, but their lives were similar as much as they were different.
Besides, just standing in the rain sounds... kind of amazing. ]
Maybe they'll show up on the station one day. But if they don't, we'll figure it out. The Jedi started somewhere, right?
[It is so rare that she opens up to anyone at all, but there's always been something about Finn that managed to burrow down through all the armor she had built up over her entire lifetime to the heart of her, cracked her open and showed her it was alright to put her trust in some people.
He's never let her down. He wouldn't start now.
Her smile is small and sad as she squeezes his hand back.]
I just wish I knew what I was doing sometimes. It feels like the only thing I've been good for is throwing myself at the problem and hoping whatever I made up worked, and now...
[Now she has the weight of rebuilding the whole Order on her shoulders. It's a little too much sometimes.]
[ Said like it's so ridiculously obvious. And even though he sighs, there's a smile. ]
If it helps, I think you're doing everything right. It doesn't have to be perfect. Just... you... Does that make sense? [ Doesn't sound like it. ] I just mean, you're doing great already. And if you think you aren't, I know a lot of people who would help.
[Him and Poe, and Poe is stuck back in their world and unable to do much of anything for either of them.
But his optimism is something she doesn't have the heart to tamp down, so she nods, gives him another quick smile and then splashes some water at him.]
We didn't come here for this, though. I'm sure the beach is supposed to be somewhere you have fun.
[ Finn gives her a Look that's both amused and exasperated. He misses Poe a lot, too, though. More so since Rey arrived. That being said, he's made a lot of friends here and knows that Rey will do the same.
So he doesn't say it, not right now. She'll find out.
Instead, he flinches and laughs when she splashes him. ]
We can always make a sand castle or something. [ He's seen those sprinkled around here already. But even as he suggests it, he splashes her right back. ]
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Thank you.
[It's enough of an answer, she can trust him to translate her meaning the way he always seems to be able to.
And then, because why not, she starts to tug him with her out into the water. That's what they're here for, right?]
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Her walking (and taking him) out there shouldn't be very unexpected, though. His eyebrows jump, but he happily follows, treading water as they go steadily deeper into the waves. ]
There may be a drop. [ So, y'know, watch your step. But he speaks softly, not wanting to interrupt this for her. ]
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[It's a joke, if a bad one, but one that's said so offhand it's probably clear she doesn't actually think it's going to hit wrong. She's too busy being absolutely enthralled by the feeling of the water pushing and pulling her body, gentle but not entirely unlike the Force when she allowed herself to fall deeply into a meditative state.
Gentle and there, moving through and with her. As she sweeps her hand through the water to test the drag of it on her limbs she decides quickly that she does in fact like this whole swimming thing, even if she isn't actually doing it and her feet are still planted firmly on the ground.
Despite the grim thing she's just said, she looks very happy.]
Will this stay like this for long? I'd be sad to see it go.
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But he's not going to bring it up. This time. Instead, he lets out a breath and allows the edge of his lips to tip back up in a tiny smile. ]
For a little while, but it'll always be programmed into the sim room, I think. You can just recreate it whenever you want. Or create a different beach or something.
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[Out of everyone that she knows, she knows Finn will understand exactly how important that moment was for her, why she would want to share it with him.]
I wish I still had the Jedi texts I got from the temple there, there's so much we can both still learn from them.
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Besides, just standing in the rain sounds... kind of amazing. ]
Maybe they'll show up on the station one day. But if they don't, we'll figure it out. The Jedi started somewhere, right?
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He's never let her down. He wouldn't start now.
Her smile is small and sad as she squeezes his hand back.]
I just wish I knew what I was doing sometimes. It feels like the only thing I've been good for is throwing myself at the problem and hoping whatever I made up worked, and now...
[Now she has the weight of rebuilding the whole Order on her shoulders. It's a little too much sometimes.]
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[ Said like it's so ridiculously obvious. And even though he sighs, there's a smile. ]
If it helps, I think you're doing everything right. It doesn't have to be perfect. Just... you... Does that make sense? [ Doesn't sound like it. ] I just mean, you're doing great already. And if you think you aren't, I know a lot of people who would help.
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[Him and Poe, and Poe is stuck back in their world and unable to do much of anything for either of them.
But his optimism is something she doesn't have the heart to tamp down, so she nods, gives him another quick smile and then splashes some water at him.]
We didn't come here for this, though. I'm sure the beach is supposed to be somewhere you have fun.
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So he doesn't say it, not right now. She'll find out.
Instead, he flinches and laughs when she splashes him. ]
We can always make a sand castle or something. [ He's seen those sprinkled around here already. But even as he suggests it, he splashes her right back. ]