[The very simple truth is that the relationship they have now has grown to be more important than the one that had started to build between her and the older version of him, the old man who had been alone for so long but who won't be, now that she'd found him.
Rey believes strongly that Luke will find his way back to Leia, that Han and Kylo Ren, who will be Ben, the way he was meant to be, will all fold him into their family. All of them will find their footing together because Rey will make sure it happens. Her deal for Han's life, her refusal to budge from this ship until Kylo Ren has finished here, it's all in the hopes of them getting that happy ending.
Everything she's working towards is for other people, and the place she had thought she'd have to fall back on is gone now. There's not a thing Luke can do about it except, thirty years from now, go home for good.]
Did you find a way to connect with your father?
[It's possible he might take that as her trying to change the subject, but in truth it's her way of asking for advice.]
[He's frowning as he replies, but he replies. He wants to ask about her going home with Tommy, wants to ask why she doesn't feel like she can find a home with him, but he knows that won't come out as he means it.] That depends on what you mean. The connection was made a long time ago. What happens now is how.
I barely knew him before. [Not the point, Luke. He kept trying to kill you before.] But to answer? I connect by not making assumptions. By letting him set the tone, while being up front about what I want.
[She knows that Han had, and even Leia did, but for some reason the idea that Luke never got to see the side of Tommy that was soft and in love with her hurts.
But then, they hadn't really ever talked about that, had they?]
He kept me safe when I was sleepwalking. He slept next to me to keep me warm when I thought I was dying and he told me that he loved me first because he knew I wouldn't be able to identify it when I felt it.
He's an inmate now and he has a son. Four years passed for him and it was two weeks for everyone else and I'm still in love with him and I don't know what to do.
[Luke wants to cry for her. He doesn't know why he didn't get to know Tommy--maybe he's let her push him away too much, when she didn't really mean to.]
I'm so sorry, Rey. I wish I could change things. I know that you WILL do what you need to, and that you will do what's right. Even when it hurts.
I am so sorry it has to hurt.
Bull taught me how to make hot chocolate. And use a really big sword. Which do you want me to bring you?
[Nothing about his answer is very helpful, but it's not something she can fault him for. Nothing is helpful now, because she still doesn't know how she's going to feel when all of this settles. All she knows now is that she doesn't want anything to do with comfort that comes from the Iron Bull. Maybe that's a grudge that could have died if it was just Han who had been hurt, but she'll never forgive him for what he did to Alfie.]
That's alright. I'm not hungry and I don't feel like fighting anything right now.
[She doesn't answer straight away because she needs the time to really think about that, to try to twist her mind around the idea of the man that Tommy is now. Cold and mean and desperate for his son, but there had still been a part of him that had listened to her when she told him he needed to clean up, to eat. She had still been able to stop him from having panic attacks.
There's still a man under there that cares, she has to hold on to that hope.]
Time, I think what he needs the most is time without having to worry about how to get out of whatever mess he's in now.
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Rey believes strongly that Luke will find his way back to Leia, that Han and Kylo Ren, who will be Ben, the way he was meant to be, will all fold him into their family. All of them will find their footing together because Rey will make sure it happens. Her deal for Han's life, her refusal to budge from this ship until Kylo Ren has finished here, it's all in the hopes of them getting that happy ending.
Everything she's working towards is for other people, and the place she had thought she'd have to fall back on is gone now. There's not a thing Luke can do about it except, thirty years from now, go home for good.]
Did you find a way to connect with your father?
[It's possible he might take that as her trying to change the subject, but in truth it's her way of asking for advice.]
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That depends on what you mean. The connection was made a long time ago. What happens now is how.
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Did you talk to Tommy?
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But then, they hadn't really ever talked about that, had they?]
He kept me safe when I was sleepwalking. He slept next to me to keep me warm when I thought I was dying and he told me that he loved me first because he knew I wouldn't be able to identify it when I felt it.
He's an inmate now and he has a son. Four years passed for him and it was two weeks for everyone else and I'm still in love with him and I don't know what to do.
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I'm so sorry, Rey. I wish I could change things. I know that you WILL do what you need to, and that you will do what's right. Even when it hurts.
I am so sorry it has to hurt.
Bull taught me how to make hot chocolate. And use a really big sword. Which do you want me to bring you?
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That's alright. I'm not hungry and I don't feel like fighting anything right now.
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Okay. What does he need? Do you know?
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There's still a man under there that cares, she has to hold on to that hope.]
Time, I think what he needs the most is time without having to worry about how to get out of whatever mess he's in now.