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[hewasweak]

[That leaves him torn: that she was afraid of him is wrong, but that everyone now has no reason to fear him - now that he has no standing at all - that he can't accept easily.

But her...]

I never wanted you to be afraid of me.

[garbagepilot]

The next time you feel that way, start with not chasing people through the forest, following it up with torture, and then killing people that matter to the people you don't want to fear you.

[hewasweak]

[okay maybe he wanted her to be afraid of him at first but that's, like, totally different now. obviously. right, obviously????]

You knew those people less than a week. Whatever you thought you knew about him was nothing to the life I lived with him.

[Even if that was probably less than like. Ten years.]

[garbagepilot]

If you want me to keep talking to you, don't ever say that again. Who I choose to care about and why is none of your business.

[hewasweak]

And what I feel about the same people is yours?

[garbagepilot]

Do you really expect me to believe you know anything at all about Finn other than what NUMBER he was assigned?

[hewasweak]

I wasn't talking about him.

[He is slightly guilty and glad that can't come through text: apparently, he has blinders when it comes to Han Solo.

Also, fuck Finn, that dude's a traitor.]

[garbagepilot]

And I am.

Are you done now? Do you have your answers?

[hewasweak]

No.

Because petulant baby.]

Are you still afraid of me?

[garbagepilot]

No.

[At the very least, she won't be by the time she sees him face to face again. But it doesn't feel like a lie, it's not deception when that fear is fading and she knows it's only going to last a few more days if she's terribly unlucky.

Watching him act like a child while talking to Luke gave her an extra push, though, so it might be a matter of hours instead.]

[hewasweak]

[pictured: kylo ren biting himself in the ass.]

What changes?

[He should have just said okay bye, but he doesn't know what to make of this, or how much her fear drove her interactions with him. Will they be more now, or less?]

[garbagepilot]

Nothing.

[If only because she doesn't want to admit his presence here has anything to do with how she lives her life or what she feels. But then... well, that's an opening that she can't just ignore, isn't it.]

I guess it depends on you.

[hewasweak]

[abort abort abort]

Meaning?

[garbagepilot]

I'm really not interested in having anything to do with you if you're going to spend all your time here trying to kill people.

[hewasweak]

[Pause. Pause.

This is the like. Ten seconds before a nuclear explosion.]

Are you blaming me for dying?

[garbagepilot]

[How did you even make that leap.]

Is that really what you got out of that? Of course I don't blame you, I doubt you WANTED to die.

[hewasweak]

[his brain is peculiar.]

You think all I want is to kill people. You think I sought him out, you think I tried to kill him.

[LET HIM TELL HER EVERYTHING SHE THINKS. Also it's. kind of true. Harry might have spoken first, but Kylo was so game for violence while running away from Han.]

[garbagepilot]

[Holy shit you are 10000% cray.]

I know that's not what happened. Stop assuming you know everything, you're coming to all the wrong conclusions. All I said is that if all you plan to do here is fight and kill, then nothing changes between us. That's what I said, and it's all I meant.

[hewasweak]

[is this news

also he doesn't actually. know how to respond to this. hold please while he tries to wrap his stupid brain around this.]

and if it's not?

[He really has no idea what she's hinting at, here. What changes if he doesn't try to kill someone for a couple months. What then.]

[garbagepilot]

I really don't know. I guess we'll see.

[hewasweak]

[And that should be that. That should totally just be that.]

Is it only because there's no one else from our time here?

[garbagepilot]

You've seen inside my head. Do you think being alone here is something I wouldn't be used to?

[hewasweak]

[Are you ready for another grossly long pause, here it is.]

Then it's because of Han Solo.

[He will realize later that he should have said something like you aren't alone here, but, you know, he's a self absorbed shit.]

[garbagepilot]

[That would have been super unwelcome anyway so it's good they dodged that bullet.]

What is?

[You lost her again Kyle Ron.]

[hewasweak]

If you didn't want anything to do with me, you'd have nothing to do with me.

[SO THERE HAS TO BE A REASON, RIGHT?]