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I barely knew him before. [Not the point, Luke. He kept trying to kill you before.] But to answer? I connect by not making assumptions. By letting him set the tone, while being up front about what I want.

[She's not really helping, asking him these questions without any indication just what they mean, so-]

Did you talk to Tommy?

No. I never really... I've never had the chance to get to know him.

[She knows that Han had, and even Leia did, but for some reason the idea that Luke never got to see the side of Tommy that was soft and in love with her hurts.

But then, they hadn't really ever talked about that, had they?]

He kept me safe when I was sleepwalking. He slept next to me to keep me warm when I thought I was dying and he told me that he loved me first because he knew I wouldn't be able to identify it when I felt it. He's an inmate now and he has a son. Four years passed for him and it was two weeks for everyone else and I'm still in love with him and I don't know what to do.

[Luke wants to cry for her. He doesn't know why he didn't get to know Tommy--maybe he's let her push him away too much, when she didn't really mean to.]

I'm so sorry, Rey. I wish I could change things. I know that you WILL do what you need to, and that you will do what's right. Even when it hurts.

I am so sorry it has to hurt.

Bull taught me how to make hot chocolate. And use a really big sword. Which do you want me to bring you?

[Nothing about his answer is very helpful, but it's not something she can fault him for. Nothing is helpful now, because she still doesn't know how she's going to feel when all of this settles. All she knows now is that she doesn't want anything to do with comfort that comes from the Iron Bull. Maybe that's a grudge that could have died if it was just Han who had been hurt, but she'll never forgive him for what he did to Alfie.]

That's alright. I'm not hungry and I don't feel like fighting anything right now.

[Not hungry? That's a bad sign. And he's forgiven Bull, as he knows Han has. He doesn't know about Alfie.]

Okay. What does he need? Do you know?

[She doesn't answer straight away because she needs the time to really think about that, to try to twist her mind around the idea of the man that Tommy is now. Cold and mean and desperate for his son, but there had still been a part of him that had listened to her when she told him he needed to clean up, to eat. She had still been able to stop him from having panic attacks.

There's still a man under there that cares, she has to hold on to that hope.]

Time, I think what he needs the most is time without having to worry about how to get out of whatever mess he's in now.

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