[That hurts, seeing it typed out in neat letters that she can't erase, and she throws her communicator across the Falcon, pulls her legs up to her chest, and presses the heels of her hands hard into her eyes.
It was stupid, thinking she'd have somewhere that would stay as good as the barge is. Never too hot or too cold, there is always food, she's come to care about people here.
Han is alive.
Letting go of Jakku had been harder than she ever lets on, and now it feels like she never left. She's still stuck there, food is still her biggest hurdle, and right now she would take the oily feeling of Unkar Plutt's eyes running over her if it meant knowing he had food and all she had to do was trade some salvage for it.
Only now, she might have to watch the rest starve too. Luke, Han, Tommy, Leonard, Rohan, Jolyne, even Lila. Even Furiosa. People she has come to care for, people she finds she wants to learn more about. She never thought she would have anything like them.
Being abandoned on Jakku still would be better than this.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
branchandroot
[ Private : Text ]
Date: 2016-04-09 07:45 am (UTC)It was stupid, thinking she'd have somewhere that would stay as good as the barge is. Never too hot or too cold, there is always food, she's come to care about people here.
Han is alive.
Letting go of Jakku had been harder than she ever lets on, and now it feels like she never left. She's still stuck there, food is still her biggest hurdle, and right now she would take the oily feeling of Unkar Plutt's eyes running over her if it meant knowing he had food and all she had to do was trade some salvage for it.
Only now, she might have to watch the rest starve too. Luke, Han, Tommy, Leonard, Rohan, Jolyne, even Lila. Even Furiosa. People she has come to care for, people she finds she wants to learn more about. She never thought she would have anything like them.
Being abandoned on Jakku still would be better than this.
Alec never gets a response. She can't do this.]